what if ?

Okey, what if I happen to tell him that I love him when we were working together? What will happen? Will he still be friend with me? Sharing laugh together? Sharing food yogether? Sharing drinks together? Sharing cigarrete together? Yes, we shared our cigar. I miss that moment. Moment when you asked my pall mall and I refused to give away coz' the box is almost empty. And you're making that puppy face asking for my cigar. And I give it to you right after you making that face. And the next day, you gave awy your half box of dunhill to me. And we were laughing together! I wish I can turn back time and straigt away tell you that I love you. You're the first man that came accros my mind when they ask me to work. When I reached the workplace, the first thing that I came across my mind is, "is superman working today?" Yes, I called him superman, because the first time we met, he was wearing a superman shirt. Damn! I miss him so much! How I wish that I can turn back time and tell him that I fell in love with him since our first met. He was so cute that night! And that night was the first time I asked for his cigar, and he straight away gave it to me without any hesitate. That moment, I fell in love harder to him. Then, I told few friends of mine that I like him. Few days after that, we were karoakeing together. And my friends were like appointing him to me, since I sang a few of love song that night. And I think he know that I like him. Nevermind. But then, he went missing. For a few weeks. Friend of mine tell me that he's going back to his hometown since it's a semester break. Okey then, I'll wait.when he came back, I noticed a few changes in him. I don't knoww but he's different from my superman few weeks ago. I'm expecting nothing. Hmmm. He's quite different. Then, we rarely talked to each other. Now, when i'm at home, he's working as a permanent at our workplace. Proud of him actually. He's just 19 i guess this year. Haven't see him for almost 2 months. And now, he's coupling with someone that I know as a really gedik girl. Really really gedik. And I hate her. But, he's already couple with her. I don't know what to do. My sister said, "redha je la" ya. I'm trying but I can't I guess. I miss him so much. I miss his voice when he's singing 'kekasihku di menara'. My favourite so far. But now already got one new fav song, ' bengang' by mantera. My sister managed to record it when he sang this song. And it keeps playing in my mind now.

Hehe. And yes. What if I can turn back time and tell him that I like him? Will he say yes and vouple with me? Or will he rejected me and stay away from me? I don't know. I'm confused. But now, he's alreaddy with this gedik girl. Urgghh. I'm tension when I thought bout it. I just wish that my superman will still remember me when I meet him later. Maybe another 5 or 6 months. -.-' but yteah, I still can meet him right? Can I YA ALLAH ? Please?

Right now, what i hope is, he will not forever with that gedik girl because I hate her. I know it's not nice but, I hate her. She's just too gedik. Urggh, hate her.

I just wanna tell my superman that no matter what happen, I still like him.

" I like you superman, and I wish you also like me"
" And just me can call you superman. Its my special nick name to you. I love you"